I feel lost during times like this. I'm not really sure what I want, I'm not sure what I need. In a couple of months everything will be gone, and I'll be starting a new life elsewhere. I'm not sure if I want that. Nor am i sure if I want to lose someone that I consider my other half. It's more than losing your significant other, it's like losing yourself, what you've become in the past that you've spent with them. It's just been bothering me for the longest time. I feel as if this is another Ben. Another, we'll go out but when college rolls around we'll go our separate ways. I don't want to be thinking about it, but it always comes up somehow... I love the relationship I'm in right now, but all I'm looking forward to is another heartbreak.